Many years have passed. And many things have happened. From nice to bad, from bad to worse. The last years have been an ongoing struggle. Nothing really seemed to work out at the end. The way I aligned my life and planned for it in the future didn't come true, as many other things I thought to be real. My entire life was formed to head in a single direction. Luckily, I started with photography back in 2007. And I loved it, right from the beginning. It gave me something that my IT-based education before couldn't give me. It changed me to the good. More over... it gave me a perspective, a way to express myself, and over the time I found out others liked what they saw from me as well. And now, in April 2012, something unimaginable happened. I made the turn to photography. Not only on my hobby base, but for real. Since April, I'm an "official" photographer. Paid. Salaried. I wrote a couple of applications as a photographer in March - my first as a photographer actually. And I had nothing but my personal shots like the ones you see here in dA. No "photographic background". I'm not a learned photographer. Or had any laboratory. Nothing. Just what I learned myself over the years. And already the second application quickly received a positive feedback. It didn't take long and I worked 3 days probationary for the photographic studio. After those days, I got in the team. Just... never thought that it would happen. My entire life designed to be some informatics guy, never got a real grip in there job-wise though, and on the first attempt to apply as a photographer, I got a professional hiring. Mind blown. My hobby is now my work. I earn money with what I love. It's a feeling I never considered to happen for me. Everything is just so unreal. Within a week, everything changed.
I know that I could easily earn more money if I had finished my studies and did my work in informatics, as an Administrator or whatever. But I learned to hate it. For years, it's the first time I feel save about my future. Or that there actually even exists a future for me. I felt so misplaced before. The only thing I still miss is the lady on my side. But I'm open for what is up to come

So... whatever was on my mind before... consider it done! I'm a free man today. Free of thoughts and worries. Free of doubts. Free of strings and chains.